It's funny how I decided that I only would date the guy I marry since I was little kid, like letting intuition guide me. Then, circumstances weren't going like I expected and fell in love with who wasn't supposed to be the one.I never let myself get involved with anybody neither go with them, not because I probably fall for them, but 'cause I know if he is not what I always dreamt about he wouldn't just be. But life is not that simple, and I always end up spending time and getting along with someone that's lovable to be with although I don't wanna date them, I don't wanna fall in any case, but while I try to avoid being with someone, I get to the point when I find myself flirting and doing what someone who's kinda dating somebody would do.
The worst of all is that I'm not even resentful with no guy.
I like it and I extremely hate it.
I feel like betraying myself.
Ps: And mommy, if you're reading this "Hi!" and I'm not usually like this